He studies Sawyer’s interviews, TV appearances, and even went to one of his concerts. Jake has followed Sawyer’s career in almost an obsessive manner. He just has to get Sawyer to admit he feels the same.

He has always known what he wants and what he wants is Sawyer Knight. Jake is now part of a large security firm providing protection to celebrities and has been hired as Sawyer’s new head of security. Jake has never forgotten Sawyer and has never gotten over him. His view of himself can be summed up as his internal thoughts are, “I’m not gay. He fights internally against who he is and has gotten pretty used to pretending. He spends his days on display for the world, going where his manager tells him, and being who his religious mother wants him to be. Yet, he is tired, lonely, unhappy, and on edge all of the time. He has music, wealth, fame, and women willing to give him whatever he wants. He is living the life most men would dream of. Ten years later, Sawyer is the lead singer, guitarist, and one of the most sought after rock stars with his band Souls of the Knight. That was the last thing Sawyer said to Jake. Freaking out that his body was responding to Jake, Sawyer pushed him away and told him to fuck off. The day before Jake left, he pressed Sawyer up against a building, told Sawyer he had been in love with him for three years, and kissed him.

When they were 17, Jake told Sawyer his family was relocating to Australia. then you'll be too weak to resist.Sawyer Knight and Jake Reed were best friends for years. The faster you try to run the quicker you'll fall to your knees. Now, he just needs to get Sawyer to admit that he feels the same.'You will be mine, Sawyer Knight. Jake wants Sawyer - always has, always will. at living the lie.Until Jake Reed, his ex-best friend and the only person who's ever made him 'feel', waltzes back into his life as the band's new head of security. He's actually gotten pretty good at pretending. all the while fighting against who he really is.

He spends every day being who the world wants him to be, who his manager tells him to be, who his mother expects him to be. Life as one of the world's most sought after rock stars is tiring, oppressive and lonely. He's surrounded by music, fame, wealth, women throwing themselves at his feet. As lead singer and guitarist of the internationally renowned Souls of the Knight, Sawyer Knight is living a life most men can only dream of.

Being Sawyer Knight by Nicola Haken